For the first time ever since I started competing, I danced
as if it was my last day on earth.
What brought about this feeling? Well, there are several
reasons:
1. My partner has started reviewing for her Civil
Engineering Licensure Exam and will not be able to practice as often as before.
Because of this, we agreed to have the Midyear Ranking as our last target competition
for this year (there is another ranking in October but we haven’t decided if we
are joining yet). Her exam will be on November, so I guess we’ll resume after
that.
So, essentially, the Midyear Ranking felt
like our “Last Dance”. Thus, the frenzied version of myself as seen by everyone
who knew my normal style of dancing.
(Oh, and we had also booked flights
to Cebu for a September competition months ahead, but it looks like I will be
going on that trip alone.)
Below: Me and Onang doing the Chacha (Final Round | Special Event Male - Latin)
Below: Me and Onang doing the Chacha (Final Round | Special Event Male - Latin)
2. I really
wanted to bag the championship title for Grade D Latin. We were not able to do
it – we only got Silver – and I think it was because of my impeccable talent in
choosing the right spot on the dance floor. We were not able to show off
completely during the Chacha round – thanks to my wise decision to go
head-to-head with the tallest couple there, who by the way, ended up as the champion.
Nonetheless, I honestly felt we danced great – our best since the Geraldine Cup
earlier this year. And by great, I mean powerful, technical, and very much
heartfelt.
Below: Me and Onang doing the Jive (Final Round | Special Event Male - Latin)
Below: Me and Onang doing the Jive (Final Round | Special Event Male - Latin)
3. I decided to take a break from dancing for a
while. Recent events in my life (READ: love life) contributed to a desire to reflect
on other aspects of my life aside from love and dancing. In a way, those two
aspects got so glued onto each other that I found it very hard to separate one
from the other, ultimately losing that balance that everyone needs in his life
and also affecting other areas of my life. Now I have a lot of reassessing to
do. And to do this, I would need to step back and get away from everything – so
I can get a clearer picture, so I can understand better why things happened, so
I can rediscover parts of myself that I lost, so I can regain control of things
I used to have full command over. It’s not just about the heart break but more
of a rediscovery. I want to be able to go back to dancing again without ever
getting confused of the reasons why I’m there and without forgetting my goals. I
want to be able to love someone again without stumbling or breaking down.
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| with Team Cebu friends |
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